After losing my first blog I have had a hard time getting motivated to start again. My first one had a specific purpose - it was for my family who lived far from me to be able to get to know my family and I a little better and to keep up with our lives.....sadly, they weren't that interested or impressed with the whole idea. After the blog got deleted I really didn't feel the need to continue with what I had been blogging about - I mean most of those who read this already know what goes on in my daily life.
But over the last couple of weeks the Lord has been working on my heart in a different area ~ that is my weight. Notice I didn't say WEIGHT LOSS, I said weight. You see, I have been "dieting" off and on for years...something that if done wrong, can actually do more harm for me than good. But lately the Lord has really been dealing with me about this, so I thought - let my blog be my personal journal as I let God work with me through this.
Will I be attempting to loss weigh - YES - but, Lord willing, it will not be my main focus. I will be applying Scripture as I study the Word of God, personal reflections, daily victories and defeats, and personal thoughts as I allow the Lord to create in me a content heart. I might record my weight each day, but if that distracts me and takes my focus off what I want to allow God to do, that may stop.
Hebrews 2:1 Therefore we ought to give the more earnest heed to the things which we have heard, lest at any time we should let them slip.
Over the last weeks I had to face the facts that I was letting things in my life slip. My eating had become an issue and was something that I spent a lot of time thinking about - more time than I needed to. When I allowed God to show me some things, He truly blessed my heart.
1 Corinthians 6:19 What? know ye not that your body is the temple of the Holy Ghost which is in you, which ye have of God, and ye are not your own?
You see, this body of mine belongs to the Lord, yet I have been so discontent with it. When I think about that it breaks my heart. God gave me life - yes, I let myself get out of shape and overweight and I know I need to do better with what God gave me - but I also need to be content with myself during this improvement process.
1 Timothy 6:6 But godliness with contentment is great gain.
Philippians 4:11 Not that I speak in respect of want: for I have learned, in whatsoever state I am, therewith to be content.
As the day has gone on I have been making a list of what my proper motive for losing weight should be. here are some of the things I have come up with:
1. To have a good testimony to those around me - I don't want people to see me as a glutton or a person who has no self control over my eating.
2. To live my life in such a way as to bring honor and glory to my Saviour - can that only be done when I'm skinny...NO!!!! But that can't be done when He isn't the top priority in my life. I don't know what weight God wants me at. But I do know that He wants to be Number One in my life and for me to do all to the glory and honor of Him.
Revelation 4:11 Thou art worthy, O Lord, to receive glory and honour and power: for thou hast created all things, and for thy pleasure they are and were created.
3. To be healthy - I don't want to let my unhealthy lifestyle hinder me from serving the Lord properly.